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shit the bed.
i just realised.
i have a youtube crush.
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dear georgie,

you have been neglecting this and yourself.
sort it out.
p.s. - you need to remember how to laugh.

i go to london tomorrow, for some reason i feel afraid.

wishlist

i've located a craving for gingerbread men and turkish delight, like i used to have at christmas when grandad was still alive. i want catherine and andrew to be happier and i want rich to find a boy who loves him, so then we can go out and have a veggie delight to celebrate. i want time to stand still so i can fully assess what's going on in my life. i want a house full of toys and pretty things. i want my heart to introduce itself to my head and share it's thoughts with my feelings. i want to read an amazing book that makes me think about life. i want to make a film that makes people cry. i want a holga, a hdvcam, patience, polaroids, and timekeeping.

today i missed the first cu nxt wednesday meeting, so i'm rather sad. i was really looking forward to it and i don't want tom to be annoyed with me. i've found a girl called joanna, who is amazingly creative. i love how she writes and draws, and it makes me pretty jealous :] i have a job now, i'm the presenter for telford rocks. they want me to 'rock' my look up, so i'm having a haircut and going back to my older teenage roots. i've been listening to amanda palmer, the medic droid, a fine frenzy, nevershoutnever, owl city, bring me the horizon and bjork this morning. my neighbours must be questioning my tastes.

i miss my camera, i want to start taking photos again but writing and drawing seems to have come back with a vengance. i seem to have reverted back to childhood as well. i've developed cravings for sugar mice, dolls houses and my old dolls.
the godzilla poster seems happy in my room, it looks much prettier here than in the media classroom; which is understandable, because of the size of the windows made it look tiny.